I've commited a TABOO

*sigh*
Yeah, sighing ISN'T a good way to start ANYTHING, let alone blogging. But I can't help it. I feel anxious, worried, unsettled and discourageous....Ok, I'll spill the beans. It's about my enrolment for distance learning Level 3 Diploma. I'm afraid my parents won't fund it for me. These courses cost more than I and THEY expected. A lot more, in fact.
*sigh* (AGAIN!!!)
Just when I was going to take a break from thinking about it, this Marcelle person (the one who has been responding to my queries) sent me an attached document encouraging me to fill it in so I can get a 10% off for my future course. Hmmm.
What remains to be seen is what sort of documents and certificates do they require me to send to them; whether or not they need to be translated and confirmed of its authenticity...; and whether I need to retake an IELTS exam because my certificate has long expired. 
As for whether my completing 11th grade in high school is equivalent to a GCSE graduate, I'm pretty sure it is. Because I've read some information about it online, and actually had been counselled about it before my studing abroad some years ago that upon finishing 10th grade, I could apply for A-level courses. In truth, I've COMPLETED my A-level courses in 2008 and got UNCONDITIONAL OFFERS from both Southampton University and Keele University (if I remember the name right). I'm already above GCSE level; but when I contacted the British Council in Ho Chi Minh city, they recommended me to take IGCSE course. Jeez!
After I'm done blogging for the day, I'll send Oxford College an email to ask them about these last hindrances. They are the only obstacles along with my parents' decision that hold me back from officially enrolling. I hate to wait. I hate to dread what other people's decision for MY future. I hate the suspense. 
I've been having a pounding headache. I suspect it will be a long time until this heavy burden of anxiety will be lifted from my shoulders. *sigh heavily*

I was so deeply engrossed in the fascinating fantasy world of this new book, Shadow and Bone yesterday night. It was amazing, really. It took a great effort out of me to put the book down and went to sleep. And you know what I did today right after I'm done with work......*whispering with great trepidation* I commited a TABOO. A taboo for any book lover *feet shuffling*.
Can you guess??? *fingers wiggering*...I FLIPPED through the book to the END. And look how good it served me ??? I let the book go and dropped the reading. It was a very very WRONG decidion I made. A very very WRONG thing to have done.
It's something like this. Ah, right, I've forgotten. "MAJOR SPOILERS, EVERYONE"

I fell in love with the true VILLAIN of the book and wasn't aware that he was ONE. Imagine my disappointment when the REVELATION was dawned on me. I thought my heart literally plummeted. Impossible though it sounds. But truly, I was so SAD, so BROKEN DOWN. I wanted the guy feel how to be TRULY happy so much since he's lived so long without any real LOVE. But he went and ruined my whole-hearted wish. The worst thing of all is, the heroine even tried to ELIMINATE him, albeit WITHOUT pleasure and willingess. It was only out of a sense of responsibility to the liviing world. Still...Poor guy.
I didn't really read the book, so I can't exactly do a complete analysis on their....eh, psychology and emotion for each other. Mind you, I'm not dropping the book from my TBR books. It's too AWESOME for me to do that. It would be like commiting a crime by dropping it. I'm just stalling it and wait until the second book in this series is out. I'll gulp them down in one EATING. 
Although the first book ended tragically, I can sense some hidden potential for the VILLAIN and the I-have-to-kill-you-or-you-will-harm-the-world-and-cause-countless-death HEROINE. The villian is too deeply crafted to be a SIDE-DISH. He's got to be on the MAIN course. If I get to sit on the table, I'll gladly devour him without reservation. He's that...TEMPTING. He's such a complex character, so much more than the CURRENT hero that I sooooo want to learn more about him. I like the hero, too. He's such a sweet, cute, endearing and royal guy...all that a girl could wish for a boyfriend. But the villain is at a completely different level. It's more than just his deliciouness. I WANT the guy to be feel what true HAPPINESS is with a fervour.
*sigh* (Gosh! How many times have I done this SIGHING thing???)
I'm sad for him. I hope the heroine could try to learn more about him instead of just focusing on planning to SAVE the world. Try to reform him or something, girl.
Abandoing the bad boy for a good-natured boy is so.....eh, PLAIN? COMMON? ORDINARY? TYPICAL?...Take your pick, and that is my opinion. I pray Leigh Bardugo are the REVOLUTIONARY type of author. Don't you think so, too???